My limitations....

Firstly, allow me to get my little sob story in....the month of May, 2009 has been the most horrendous month of my life, medically that is. Starting from the first week, first i came down with severe backache, then the dreadful chicken pox and then a stomach infection which is a common post chicken pox symptom.

I have spent most the month on the bed. Doing nothing more than wincing in pain or dealing the raging itch that comes with chicken pox. Resisting the urge to itch is exactly like refusing a topless centrefold sitting on a golden sand beach. But then again, i am proud of my control (no pun intended!) to come out of it unscarred.

I can't thank my family enough for helping me through it. My brothers for their sincere concern and all my friends for their wishes. Those who didn't call, thanks for not bothering me.

Now, back to blog!!

After my previous posts, i have been told by many of my friends and cousins about the intensity of the topics i write about.
So far, i have only written three posts. But all of them dealt with a deeply religious, social or if it can be put in liberal terms, a rebellious issue. I took the advice seriously and tried to think of a topic that is well, lighter and not that long to write on. But in all honesty, thats all i could manage....thinking about it and nothing more!!

Here's the deal....i can't, and i mean it....i can't write on topics i don't have a passionate view on. I can't write a funny, short and entertaining article or blog, atleast not unless i really feel about it.

I know i do take the liberty of calling myself a writer. A professional freelancer!! And writing on topics desired should be a habit for me or a part of my job.

But that's the funny bit, i am a freelancer exactly for the same reason and i get into a tiff with my editors many times over the same issue. My imagination and entire mechanism of writing doesn't work on order. I can't write if someone tells me "here's twenty thousand bucks, please write a 1500 word article on child abuse or women rights"... in my rage, i am most likely to ask whose side should i take while writing, should i make it 'for' or 'against' the topic??

I guess it's fair to say that i write to satisfy my craving of self expression and most artists in the world practise their art pretty much for the same reason. The whole concept somehow looses its sheen and appeal if its made obligatory and mechanical. Writing for me has always been a reflexive act, always responding to the stimuli around me. In most cases, its driven by my dissatisfaction or my dissent on the social conditions that prevail around us.

I very much prefer to keep it that way, to maintain a writeup as a simple involuntary response to the questions around. That way (if i can run the risk of sounding almost as melodramatic as a cheeky hindi movie dialouge) it's pure and unadulterated. I honestly believe that's how an art form should always remain to anyone practising it.

I offer my sincere apologies to everyone expecting something a little different from me. But i guess it would have to wait till the inspiration strikes me to be funny.... :-))